3 Musketeers: 2010

Sunday, February 28, 2010

My Max...God's Promise

I was away at a women's conference for the weekend and I came home and spent the evening with the main man in my life, Maximillian. We hung out, watched a new Veggie Tales' movie and then I read him a story and tucked him into bed. Now, you have to understand that the things that come out of this child's mouth daily crack me up, amaze me, or bring me to tears with their depth and insight. But tonight, I was especially moved. We talked about a lot of things and He told me, "Mom - God made me special and everyone loves me so much. (which, i so want him to feel since he's gone through some tough stuff) and I know what a rainbow is - God's promise to us! I would like to plant rainbow seeds and grow rainbow flowers because that's God's promise!" To which I told him a very filtered version of a dream and vision God gave me the day the earth stood still for me, 10 months ago. I told Max, "You know, sweetie, Mama was really sad one day..'Why were you sad, Mama?'...well, because Mama was just having a hard day." To which Max replied, "But, Mom - Jesus will come and take care of you and you don't have to be sad - because He'll make you happy!" and I told him that he was absolutely right, and that Mama saw a rainbow that day and Jesus promised me that even though it was a really, really big storm, everything was going to be okay, and Max and Mia would be okay - Jesus promised! So then Max tells me, "Who know who I love the most, Mom? God. and Jesus. They take care of us." Then as I prayed for him and kissed him goodnight - he blew me a kiss and I blew him one back and he said, "I caught that kiss and put it in my heart." then one last thing, "Mom? Jesus will take care of you, always...even when you're lost, He'll show you how to get home, okay?"
Out of the mouths of babes...My 3 year old just spoke the heart of God to my broken and bleeding soul, and it brings me healing. Especially to know that he is knowing God as his Abba Father - the way I had to know God when my Dad left when I was 7. God has always been my Faithful Father and is being just that to my babies. I'm humbled with gratitude.

Monday, January 11, 2010

9 months later....

Hey Everyone...yep, it's almost been year since I posted. Not sure if anyone even checks this anymore, but there's a reason I went MIA. There's just the 3 of us now. Me and Max and Mia. I won't go into detail, but do appreciate all the love and prayers...it's kept me going through the valley of the shadow of death believing we'll make it through. I will probably start a new blog about our new life, but wanted to say we're okay, and God has blessed us with amazing friends and family to see us through.
"Whatever you do, hold on to hope.
The tiniest thread will twist into an unbreakable cord.
Let hope anchor you in the possibility that this is not the end of your story.
That change will bring you to peaceful shores."
All I know is that this is not the end of my story.